Guilt and embarrassment. I realise this title alone contradicts what I have written above, but please hear me out. If there was one thing playing on my mind (besides the obvious nerves) before deciding to go ahead with my surgery, was guilt. I felt guilty that I would be dropping $13k on something that was not 100% a necessity. Especially when there are people such as my mother and brother who are struggling financially. I realised if I decided NOT to proceed with my Plastic Surgery, and donate the money to my mother instead, she would never accept. She has already rejected my financial support in the past. As for my brother, I don’t believe giving him money will help his cause. He needs to change his lifestyle if he wants to get ahead. And then you think about all those starving children in 3rd world countries who are struggling to eat…and here I am wasting money on something as fickle as vanity. Yes, it’s a cruel world! Guilt was a very hard emotion for me to overcome. And let me tell you something, I am no bleeding heart!

And I won’t lie, I also felt some embarrassment. Not so much because I care what people think, or maybe deep down I do? I decided to keep things to myself and girlfriend anyway. I told close family and friends I was having my wisdom teeth removed, which gives me an excuse to vanish for a few weeks to heal. My girlfriend is fully supportive of my quest for Plastic Surgery, but I think deep down she figured I would never have the balls to go through with it all. In retrospect she would be very wrong, this once

If I was to tell my Dad I was going to have Plastic Surgery, I feel he will doubt my sanity. Which I’m sure he already does. My Dad is from an era in time where only the rich and famous have Plastic Surgery. Why the hell would his son need it?? When or if he does eventually find out, I will just tell him I was unhappy with the genetic hand I was dealt. (I love to stir him up) I know for sure my brother and sister will be all for it. They have both been vocal on their opinions of Plastic Surgery in the past. I am really not sure how my mother will react. But I believe with some of the family secrets that have been revealed in recent times, nothing will shock her anymore. But at this stage, I really don’t want to stress her out about it. As for close friends, I honestly don’t care what they think. (not that I don’t care for their values or opinions) For now I won’t say anything unless they notice. They know I am not a conventional man, so I doubt anyone will be surprised.