Day Before Surgery

I recorded my thoughts and feelings in a note book which I am now referring to.

Noted ” Have been feeling some nerves, but only when I think about the surgery. Definately having doubts and wondering what the hell am I doing!? This idea all sounded good in theory, but now it comes to the crunch perhaps it wasn’t such a great idea after all. Things are feeling very surreal. I am feeling incredibly guilty about lying to my mum and friends about having my wisdom teeth pulled. I have no moral issues when it comes to plastic surgery, but to blow $13k on Vanity makes me feel very guilty. I randomly get the feelings of butterflies and that sinking feeling in my stomach everytime my thoughts dwell on tomorrows surgery. I am worried that something may go wrong in the surgery, or that I may never wake up. What a pointless way to die, on something so fickle and unecessary.”